All alone:

It’s been bugging me all these while. I finally realized the truth behind human nature that everyone actually leaves their friends when they have new friends. To be honest, all along, I have always felt that I’m alone. No one is really there for me. Everyone leaves me anyway. At the end of they day, I’m still alone. All alone.

Recently, I looked back and random thoughts just ran through my mind. No one really appreciated what I had ever done for them. I took days and hours to plan but no one really cared. Instead, they appreciated what their other friends did. Is that supposed to be the way?

Memories just flashed back. I saw someone who was really close to be in the past. From strangers to friends to close friends to sisters and back to strangers again. I really felt so guilty and regretful. I’m sorry I abandoned you. Maybe that was not abandoning but the fact that I did not try to salvage our friendship was my fault. Now I really know the feeling of being “abandoned”. I really missed you so much right now when I looked back at the photos. Maybe I never occurred to you anymore but you still run through my mind and I wanna be there for you when you need help. I’m sorry, terribly sorry.

I really need someone who can understand me. So maybe forever really doesn’t exist in this world…

(Just some feelings I thought I need to let out before I burst into tears.)

@1 year ago